New Direction

I am not married. I am not engaged. In fact, I am single.

There it is for all the world to see. I have been in this single state since October of 2006. And as I have been moving forward from such a significantly life-changing event [a broken engagement] I knew that one day a post such as this would be necessary. Lately, I often I wonder if my inability, hesitancy, procrastination, whatever you may call it, has kept me from blogging.

I think it has. And there is healing in my public announcement.

I fully intend to keep my proposal story up, at least for a while, as it was a significant event that God has used to shape me to the point I am now. And my broken engagement has also been a tremendous factor in who I am today. God is so faithful! It has been a long and painful road and I have walked it sober.

It would have been so easy to turn to alcohol, drugs, men, anything to make the pain go away. But, with the wisdom God has given me I was able to make the decision to be sober. To allow myself to feel all the pain right down to the deepest cut and experience the vastness of the pain so that I may heal completely and wholly.

I now stand at the crossroad between the past and future regarding this event. I choose to walk, to cross the line, and only look back to praise God for what He has done in my life and to use my experience to relate to others. Once again, God has saved my soul!